For some, medicine is a calling. For others, it is an inheritance—a family business passed down like an antique stethoscope, polished and obligatory. For Arjun, it was a burden stitched into his surname.
His father was a cardiologist in Birmingham, his mother a consultant paediatrician. Their friends were all doctors. Dinner parties revolved around gossip of consultants, registrars, clinical directors. As a child, Arjun had drawn not superheroes but ECG traces. His parents introduced him not as “our son” but as “our future doctor.”
By sixth form, the script was written. Medical school. No detours. No rebellion. Arjun was clever enough, diligent enough. But inside, he harboured a quiet, shameful truth: he didn’t want it. He wanted literature, history, perhaps politics. He wanted words, not wounds. But in his house, there was no vocabulary for such desires.
So he applied. He sat the UCAT, grim-faced, scored decently. He wrote a personal statement filled with the language of duty and empathy, every sentence curated by his father at the dining table. He secured interviews at Leeds and Nottingham. Outwardly, he was the model applicant. Inwardly, he was drowning.
At Nottingham, the interview was a panel. “Tell us,” a professor asked, “about a time you showed resilience.”
Arjun hesitated. The truth—“I am resilient every day, surviving a destiny I never chose”—would have shocked them. Instead, he muttered something about studying for exams during Covid. The words tasted like cardboard.
At Leeds, during the roleplay station, he was asked to console a grieving relative. The actress wept convincingly. Arjun listened, nodded, said all the right phrases. And then, to his horror, he began to cry himself. Not for the roleplay, but for the life slipping through his fingers. The examiner offered him a tissue. He accepted, ashamed.
Rejections followed. Nottingham: no. Leeds: no. His parents tried to hide their disappointment, but their faces were transparent. His mother spoke of “another attempt next year.” His father muttered about “work experience to strengthen the application.” Arjun nodded, silent, his insides curdling.
That spring, he locked himself in his room and wrote—essays, short stories, fragments of novels. Words poured out of him like a fever. One story, about a boy forced into a life he did not choose, won a national school prize. His parents attended the ceremony, clapping politely, as if literature were a minor infection he would outgrow.
But when the UCAS deadline came again, Arjun made his decision. He did not apply to medicine. He applied to English. His parents discovered it weeks later, when the acknowledgement letters arrived.
The house erupted. His father accused him of betrayal, his mother of cowardice. For days, silence hung between them, thick and toxic. Yet Arjun, terrified, also felt free. For the first time, he was living his own script, not theirs.
Years later, he would look back without regret. He became a teacher, then a writer, and his stories carried a truth medicine never could: that honesty with oneself is the first act of healing.
Advice for applicants? Medicine is noble, yes. But it is not the only noble life. Do not mistake your parents’ ambitions for your own. The profession demands total commitment. Without it, the ward becomes a prison, the patients a burden, the stethoscope a chain. Better an honest “no” than a dishonest lifetime.
And if you are certain, if medicine burns in you like a fever, then pursue it fiercely. But let it be your flame, not one lit for you by another’s hand.


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